Rant

Life brings you so much things, sometimes things you could never expect, and surprises. Me a year before had no idea I would be where I am now. The only thing is, those surprises aren't always a good things. There are those days where all bad things could happen at one same time and makes you feel like dying. The feeling is a thousand times more intense if you don't have anyone to talk about it and you just hide and cry. Dark secrets aren't always ugly truth. It may be things other people never consider as a problem but to you, it's like a major catastrophe. There's a lot of reason why you could keep a secret and you have every right in this world to do that.

I read a quote today that says 'I could never be mad at someone because I understand others too much'. Yeah. Happens a lot. I'm really envious to those who could just cry, be mad, speak for themselves, scream. Where I stand, I see that as a strength. Do you realise that some people want to be heard but they just can't? Push thema thousand times for it they won't even say a thing although they just wanted to scream it all out. They have reasons for that. Are they trying to be strong? No. Just the complete opposite. They could not be strong.

But life also thought me that, no matter how bad things are for you, there are people out there, or maybe the person beside you, that has it worse. People have their own stories. It might seem as is nothing to you, but to them? A simple example, you're going to KFC to buy like some random meal that you want just to fill up our belly. You're also planning on having cakes as a desert, and maybe stop by McD's for some ice creams The person in front of you orders the same exact meal. The only difference is, he bought it for his son. He saved to buy that meal for 2 weeks, only eating when he's starving, saving 50, or 80 cents a day to buy it. So much effort just for that meal. The meal where you went through nothing to buy, but another person went through everything just for that. This is a real story.This is life.

This post is messed up and has no point but I'm just writing this because I felt that way before. I once felt the whole world was against me, the world was clearly playing games on me. I thought I would literally die. But hey it's all in the past. What you went through today, might be just a mere memory tomorrow.