My Opinion on Love

Assalamualaikum,
For today's post I'd be talking (or writing) about my view on love. How do I see love? What is love even?

If this question was asked on a 16 year-old me, I have no doubt that I would give the cheeziest answer possible. Love was never what I thought it would be, it's something more than just a bond, it's like a connection. Again, the 16 year-old me was desperate for love, and just to make it clear, I'm talking about the LOVE love. Not the family love but the romantic one. and yeah I was pretty desperate to love and be loved, feel things I could never feel before, and thinking back, haha what a fool you were. Now it really terrifies me.

Love made me see a person differently and completely change the way I look at the person. It made me had this sort of bond that made me so comfortable and so passionate. Love also made me vulnerable and show the weak part of me. The one thing that terrifies me the most. When a person sees that part of me, I became so overly attached that it kills me. It ruined me. I don't know whether it's the way I love a person that made me break, or was it just because I was unlucky and met the wrong person?

Those questions never leave my head. Yes, when you love, you are prepared to lose. I lost every time. I thought I am stronger now but yeah, life never stop giving you lessons.

So what is my opinion on love?

For me it's something you should not try recklessly. There are those in love for 10 years, marry and live happily ever after, and some met and fall in love at first sight and marry and live happy. But there are those who are tested by Allah to feel heartbreaks. Love when you are fully ready. When you don't have any other commitments. Don't give in to love just because your friend is in love. Love is a risk. 50/50. You date her or no. If yes, would you stay together or no. If yes again, would one of you cheat? Would you end up marrying? So many questions, uncertainties, too much risk yet people never consider any of these when they fall in love.

So for me, before you start investing your love on some other people, might as well start with self love. Love yourself, love God, love your religion, your families, invest yourself in those first because you can't love others when you don't even love yourself.

Ah. Love. I got better things to do.